My dinner: quinoa + fresh spinach + avocado + tomato + feta cheese + smoked salmon + a dressing I made (balsam vinegaer + fruit sugar that you boil). It was super awesome and super easy.

I find it hard to be in Carlisle at the moment. I have been here too long now, I usually always go home once before Christmas. It is one month until I go home and it feels like forever. It doesn’t make it better that Craig is going to be away for two weeks now also. I mean, OBVIOUSLY I am a strong independent woman but it sucks having to miss him also on top of everything else. But it’ll be fine as usual, I’m gonna try to organize my life. This weekend: dissertation & try to get as much as possible done on my website.

Tomorrow I think I might get drunk, it’s been a long time since. Who knows, maybe I’ll be moving my hips like yeah.

The big black box in the corner is their amp. There was nothing I could do about that, so please don’t judge me. This is my first emo design and I quite like it.

Åh långa nätter, där ute finns så många långa nätter
Och han ligger ner och vilar mot min arm,
jag längtar bort ifrån hans kyla och hans charm,
till långa nätter, till långa nätter

Säg, är det långa nätters fara att se det man vill se,
och var den man vill vara, och någon att ty sig till,
när långa nätter inte gör som man vill

I am 100% completely obsessed with Lady Gaga’s new song and video.

HELLO. It is Friday night and I am watching Cabaret and I can barely keep my eyes opened. This has been one of the most stressful weeks ever it feels like (hence why I haven’t updated any food photos). I am so worried I will get failed again, although I don’t think I will. I would be surprised if I was. Also I had a chocolate muffin tonight, but it is okay to do it once a week I guess. I am doing well so far though. Good for me.

I wish I was crunk and dancing on the r’n'b dancefloor @ Birger Jarl tonight :(

Thank you L-bird!

Yo betcheez. So the last couple of days I have been busy busy redesigning my three latest projects. I am not finished yet but I am liking where it is going. It is just a pain working from 10 to twelve at night. But I am getting a lot done so it’s fiiiiine. I wish I had more time to spend on my dissertation though, because I am seriously into that shit. Hopefully I can do some work on it over the weekend.

Anyhoo me and Deniz had a chilled out break tonight and we watched two new episodes of How I Met Your Mother and it was awe-some. I am so glad that Barney and Robin have broken up now, they are much better and funnier single. I am sure they will end up together again though blah blah blah but I did not enjoy watching them together.

In other news there are no other news. I am consumed with graphic design atm. I hope to udate my website soonish also, and I will put everything that I am working on up for you allz to see.

So this is a new thing. I am going to start posting what I eat because I am starting my new healthier life. And if I blog about it I will feel more motivated to keep going. I might not blog every day because a lot of the times I will eat the same thing two days in row (I am a student). So anyhoo. This is what I had day #1:
- Breakfast: porridge + två knäckebrö + Philadelphia light + ornage
- Lunch: pasta salad with goats cheese, beetroot, sunflower seeds and walnuts
- Later: egg + halloumi cheese + cottage cheese + tomatoes
- Later: banana + pistachio nuts

So yeah. There you go. Wish me luck. I could use some encouraging comments (hint hint Stina-Kajsa).

I feel a bit lost at the moment. Like I sometimes do when I am in Carlisle. I miss my friends very much. I miss doing a lot of stuff. I know it is my own fault that my days seem to be the same all the time. I miss my friends. I am getting a bit stressed about my future also but not too much. I think my plan is to move to a big city. Where I don’t know yet. I want to do feminism studies. The more I think about it the more clear it becomes. After my 2 and a half years at this graphic design course and especially after living in England it has really opened up my eyes and has been the one thing that I have become the most interested in. I don’t regret moving here, I don’t regret doing graphic design and I am sure I will have use of what I’ve learned (to start a studio/collective working with/for women would be friggin awesome) in the future. But I want to learn more. I want to be smarter and I want to be able to destroy anyone who thinks everything already is equal and that we should just stfu.

But first I have to finish this course. And that means I need to stop blogging and start working. Hello InDesign it is going to be a long week.

This are my billboards for this brief (”Rage against the machine”). Basically it is about making people use less technology. Which I don’t really understand, surely what needs to be discussed is how we use the technology. Anyhoo. My idea was to knit organic things with steel wire and have the images speak for themselves but as it turns out knitting with steel wire isn’t as easy as it sounds. + There was difficulties photographing the steel wire things without access to a studio. But this is what it’s turned into and I actually really like it. The first one is my favourite. The other three are not as good but I intend to re shoot it and improve them.

This was the first year I actually dressed up or even celebrated Halloween. Well, except for my 18th birthday party when I dressed up as Shrek and then the police came. That was an awesome party. Anyhoo Halloween in England is a much bigger deal than Sweden. I had fun at the party but I had the most fun spending ages doing this make up.

It was a long time since I found a band that I absolutely love everything about. I know a lot of people think I am pathetic for loving alternative country/folk music but it really really is my favourite and I don’t give a shit. Their guitars reminds me so much of Ryan Adams and the albums are really really good. If you like this kind of music I peomise you will love Avett Brothers.

I’d say that today wasn’t the best day. I feel very homesick today. It’s got nothing to do with the people that are here because they are lovely. I miss Jenny tonight, I just really want to see her and talk to her. It’s so difficult to go from a summer of hanging out constantly and then I can’t see her for months. She is the easiest person in the world to just hang out with and she is the best friend in the whole world. Meerggh :(

DUDES! I have totally gone away for ages again and I am sorry. I am super busy with uni and yeah yeah whatever. Since last we have had a corporate identity brief which I enjoyed even though I feel like we had too little time to do it. And university is sometimes very frustrating. I feel like I have to prove so much and it is hard when you feel passionate about something you are doing something you feel could be potentially really good and then not get the guidance that you hope for. For example, a couple of weeks ago I was in the studio until four waiting for a tutor to come see my work and all he did was he stood in front of my screen (he didn’t even sit down) and after a few seconds said “I don’t think anything about this, ask someone else”. Ok great, thanks. I got told in the beginning of this year that I almost didn’t pass and that I have to get more tutoring this year. And I have been in the studio every day that they ask us to be there and I really try to do better, but it is hard when you feel like you have to prove much more than everybody else and I don’t know if it is me being super paranoid but I almost feel like there is an expectation that I am going to fail again. This has probably also got to do with my confidence taking a big turn in the last couple of years. But yeah, there you go. Honest blog.

In other news. I was in Newcastle last week and saw Passion Pit. It was my first concert in England, and it was nice with a break from Carlisle. I also got a pair of amazing boots from H&M that I totally love now. The things I have bought this fall are so amazing, like my new make up brushes from Sigma. They have changed my life!

I am listening a lot to the Avett Brothers and the Local Natives right now. I can’t believe I had never heard of Avett Brothers until now. It feels like they were made just for me.

And also it was my birthday on tuesday. Well, I did kinda celebrate three nights in a row. On monday night Robbie came over and I made dinner and muffins and we + Craig & Laney had birthday tequila and it was really fun. On tuesday we went to Office to hear Damian sing & play but we missed it with like 5 minutes which sucked but it was a nice night anyway and we ended up at Concrete. Then Wednesday I was not feeling good at all but made it to dinner at the indian restaurant across the streets with the girls I live with and it was aaa-mazing. And yes I did get gifts. From the girls I got MAC make up (four eyeshadows and two lipsticks) and I have tried it on and I love it. From Craig I got the Cute Overload calender and the Kanye West Glowing in the Dark book, but my favourite gift of all the gifts was the coasters with a picture of a pug wearing a nurses outfit that he gave me. It makes me so happy.

So yeah. There’s an update. Let’s try to make this blogging thing happen. Again.

So this is what I ended up with. Tomorrow I am getting help from L-Bird to take some better photos of them and then I’m gonna start working on the mailer. I have an idea for it so I am not too worried about this project right now. And oh yeah there should probably be an x in there somewhere also. CLASSIC alphabet joke.

Grace Coddington / Nour El-Refai

These two women are my favourite women right now. I watched The September Issue the other night and it was awesome. Anna Wintour was very interesting but Grace Coddington was AM-AZING. Obviously I’ve seen her styling and her photos are beautiful, and her personality made me fall in love with her. I wish I was like that. And then there is Nour. Always love Nour. Me and Deniz were listening to her radio show today and after hearing it again all I feel is - I ALSO WANT TO DO SOMETHING FOR THE GIRLS. It is always the most important thing. The women. Important.

I don’t really know if I have understood this brief correctly but here is a photo of some of the things I’ve done the last week. Now I need to chose one and develop it into a whole typeface. If that is what we’re supposed to do? Yes? Yes. Oh wells.

Hello everybody. I am sorry about the lack of posts lately. I am 1) back in Carlisle anyhoo. We enrolled monday, got our 2) new brief yesterday and today me and Deniz went into town and I got 3) new stuff from Lush.

1. I got here last monday after having to spend the night at the airport. The first days here Alex stayed in our house and it was fun having him here. We played (the card game) Casino and for some fucking reason he won (WITH ONE POINT!) and it was the most horrible experience I’ve had since coming back (including finding a wood lice in my pasta). It is nice being back in the house with the girls again because they are awesome. Craig came back last Saturday and he is also very awesome. I just wish he would make better jokes.

2. The new brief is ‘Experimental typography’. I was not expecting to feel very inspired after the first briefing since a lot of stuff is so shit with our university this year, but Simon made a good job with presenting it. I feel like I want to make the most out of this year and mainly focus on doing stuff that I know that I can do and that I am good at doing. What I feel went wrong last year was that I tried things that I wasn’t comfortable with and I didn’t feel I got the right support from the tutors. Hopefully this will be better this year. I will post photos of how this brief is evolving.

3. So yes. Today me and Deniz went into town. I went mainly because I had to get wire, wool etc but thats not all I got. Of course that’s not all I got. I found an awesome dress that had the name MARIA written all over it. I had to get it. And then we went into Lush where they had an awesome ‘Freshers Box’ offer so I got that also. I am trying the ‘Catastrophe Cosmetic‘ after I’ve finished this blog post. I am very excited.

So yeah. I guess that is it for now. I will update more regularly from now on.

http://www.bonmagazine.com/

Bon has been my favoruite magazine for many years. And I think this fall’s issue is one of my favourite ones ever. Look how beautiful this cover is, it’s almast making me religious:

Expensive and hurt like hell. Totally worth it.

I feel like a stronger person everytime I listen to Rilo Kiley/Jenny Lewis

This is beautiful.

I’m having my first day of doing absolutely nothing all by myself. I was feeling a bit panicked when I woke up but I am enjoying it now. It’s nice to not wanting to do anything. I have been listening to a lot of Cat Power and Devendra Banhart. What I might do is work some on my redesign of my website, because 1) I bought my own space and name for it so I can stop stealing from Deniz 2) it needs some sprucing up. But I might also just chillax and try some new stuff with my hair.

I love this man! But even more so, I love this photo. It’s the perfect way to capture the result of a day in Stockholm with huge amounts of alcohol and then only having to pay 60kr for the bus home at 3am and having the best busdriver ever that put on Benjamin’s favourite movie (he was so excited, I fell asleep).

That being said. Waking up 1,5h later cold and on the verge to hungover realising that you have to walk the 5 minutes from the bus station to get to home and to be able to go to sleep again was so fucking horrible and it makes you question if it was even worth an awesome night out. (It was… almost).

I can’t believe how amazing Fibes oh Fibes! ft Kim WIlde - Run to you is! Seriously it was a long time since I was this excited about a song. I love it so much.

Well I can stand and wait, start a fight, climb the Empire State
I’m ready, steady, go even though you’re still miles away
I wanna, I need to, I’m gonna run to you

I’m such a sinner, you’re such a star
I’m no beginner, so set the heaven on fire
When there’s no turning back from who we are
No matter what we’re through
I’m gonna run to you